|One of my favorite days of summer|
But now I feel as though someone has taken a pin and popped the little bubble I was living in. It took all of two days of being back to work full-time for the sink to overflow with dishes and for the perpetual exhaustion to settle back in. Truth be told, I have a great job. It's incredibly challenging, and very demanding of my time, but I honestly love my students and do enjoy my work. I just wish I could go above and beyond professionally without my personal life taking a hit. When I stay late after school to work more, I miss out on even more time with Lina, which just kills me. But if I spend my whole weekend relaxing with my family, I feel guilty that I should have done more work for school. Sometimes I feel perpetually guilty. If any of you working moms unlock this mystery, please share your secrets!
I guess at the end of the day, it's a balancing act that I will eventually master. In reality, I was blessed that the city of New York gave me ten paid weeks off to enjoy with my family. Maybe instead of complaining, I should acknowledge what a wonderful thing that is, then focus my attention on how to better balance it all. We all wear many hats, I suppose; wife, mother, teacher. I guess the trick is to master how to change them swiftly, while not letting the other ones fall.